The 30 day meme

Day 01 – Introduce yourself
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail
Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail
Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail
Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail
Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail
Day 13 – This week, in great detail
Day 14 – What you wore today, in great detail
Day 15 – Your dreams, in great detail
Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail
Day 17 – Your favorite memory, in great detail
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday, in great detail
Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail
Day 20 – This month, in great detail
Day 21 – Another moment, in great detail
Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 – A first, in great detail
Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 – Your favorite place, in great detail
Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 – Your aspirations, in great detail
Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail

Don't know why I'm starting it now as I go to new york for about 7 days and so won't be able to do it, but hey ho I will try.

2 hours and 45 minutes

Till my boy is in my house, I can't wait to see him. I miss him so much when he isn't near me....I'm guessing it is cos we have just spent a week together, so when we are back to normal of not seeing each other much it will either mean more or it will rub off haha.

It's been so hot these last few days, I wouldn't complain as I love the heat, but working in a FORTY DEGREE KITCHEN is not fucking fun, but oh well think of the money.
I did a vclose last night and I loved it, yes I do enjoy cleaning for some strange reason.

I'm getting back into Pendulum, especially the island that is my fave song at the moment. So I'm off to play them while I get ready for the boy to come stay for four days.

another month flies past.

Why is time going so fast? I mean I can remeber getting ready to start university and now I'm getting ready to end it all, move home and panic over my future.

I go home in 7 days and I'm not ready, I've not started to pack what I'm going to need for a week, download and an open day at southend college.

My mum came up yesterday, it was ok....I'm dreading me moving home, I think it is going to be a case of steve moving somewhere really shit in brighton, me applying for pizza hut jobs down there and paying him rent. I can't live with my mum, it will not do my mental health any good.

Talking of my menatal health, it is shit, I'm crying, taking risks, not eating and I really want to go to the Docs but I feel like they be like well you only have 20 odd days till you get refferedm you leave for essex in less than 7 days...surely you be ok. I've not got anything planned wednesday so I will call up and try to get an appointment for something.

Things with steve are strained because of my mental health and it is affecting him, but he wont walk away even though he is getting ill. so I'm giving him some space from me so he can live life to the full without having me crying down the phone going I'm in so much pain, I don't know what to do.

Well it is half past 12 and I've got to get ready to take stuff back to town, check my balance and get ready for work. Woo hoo my life is fun, fun, fun.


*3 days till dissertation gets handed in....Conclusion, title page and binding is left to do.
*19 days till my placement folder is handed in.
*22 days till I hit Essex.
*26 days till Download and a weekend of seeing amazing people.
*31 days till I see the boy.

Sliver shining stars.

So what is going on, well I get angry and livejournal will get long so I will do it in bullet points.

*I can't go to Brighton at the start of May because of my stupid university placement.

*Because of the above I asked the boy to come visit me BUT he is dragging his feet, I would buy him tickets but I don't know how he will react and I am sick of always asking.

*I have a new housemate, his Ryan's boyfriend and they are now overloading on noisy sex, waking me up, dropping stuff on the floor 24 hours, 7 days a week. THEY ARE DRIVING ME MENTAL!!!. I just hope they break up and know how hard it be living with each other. It killed me and paul, but then paul was a C U Next Tuesday. So I don't care and he also got me out of mental house in hanover square.

*I have a new friend in the name of Luke, he is gorgeous and lovely,tattooed and pierced, lives in York and I'm going to go annoy him sometime soon for alcohol. The downfall is he reminds me of simon.

*Talking of Simon he hasn't got the hint of I have a bf, I have been with him for four months. "I'm coming to Leeds in May, want to meet?", NO I don't because you will want to stay over, you will want sex and when I go no fuck off you be like a hurt little boy. I do not need that in my life. Plus my boyfriend thinks your the biggest dick ever for what you did to me.

*I'm going to see my bestie Claire today we are getting food and going to the cinema, not sure what we are seeing. It's either Dear John, Remember me or Kick ass. Don't want to see kick ass without the smelly boy.

Other than the above, I'm enjoying the sunshine, missing Brighton and the boy. think I may call him up while his asleep and tell him how I'm feeling.

Last night.

OMG Dropkicks were bloody brilliant as always, I really loved spending two hours of nonstop dancing while they played. They played all my fave songs especially kiss me I'm shitfaced.
I would so love to see them tonight in Manchester as there are spare tickets but I would have to go straight there with all my libary books, uni stuff and I just don't think it's possible.

Before the gig I dropped my phone in the bath, it seems to be working after spending about 8 hours making love to rice in a bowl.

I got woken up by housemate and instead of having an appology he just kept shushing me and telling me how drunk they were. I DON'T CARE, I was asleep for work and now I'm bloody knacked. I will be having words with him when I see him next, and there is a high chance of killing him. I also don't get why they had to use the bathroom next to me, ther is one upstairs that is closer to them.

Now I'm going to get ready for placement, annoy the boy after placement as I need him to get his tickets to up north asap. 7 weeks of no going down south, no beaches or big bed. Atleast Fran has 7 weeks of the place to come and go happily if not longer as he will be hitting leeds june to drive me and my junk home. I reeally love that boy.